I'll the rest of my Disney trip details later.

I know what my problem is. I need a problem. I have to have something to complain about. I've never been truely happy because I've always looked at the bad. And I probably always will.

I always feel that there is a problem with the guy I'm with at that time. Or, in is case, the guy that I'm going to ruinit with efore he's ever mine.

I'm a loser. I'm like this relationship killer.

Along with that I'm a cereal/conversation/friend/evil/mass murderer-killer. Well some of those aren't true... Like the ones that aren't legal.

but yea. I'm having... well, making problems with Techno... like and idiot! I'm so stupid. He feels bad for one day and I feel like he's not talking cause he oesn't like me. And the only thing that made me think that was the fact that I had a bunch of other stuff to be worried about. School, drama, my family.

I got really afraid recently about somthing. I had a dream the night before I left for home about my great grandpa... He died in it... SO 've just been worried that he's going to get ill or something really soon. I haven't heard from him lately. He's one of my favorite relatives.