Selfish?

I didn't realize how much I missed Jake while he was gone. He moved to Ohio about a year ago. I've only seen he about three or four times since then. He came over today for my birthday because he was in town. He and Crystal got along really well. He and Spencer were already good friends. Kayla wasn't able to come over. And Michael couldn't cause his car was taken away from him.

I recieved Play-Doh, two awesome jackets, a toy plastic microphone, Five Score andSeven Years Ago, and a good small Cd player that I can take into the bathroom when I take showers and whatnot. I also got $50 which is a big deal to me cause I'm always broke. Kayla got me an awesome My Chem T-Shirt but I'm get it Monday because of her not being able to visit.

I don't know if Michael is going to get me anything at all. He probably won't because he probably doesn't feel completely obligated to because we aren't officially together which is tearing me into a bunch of happy/sad/angry/sentimental/confused pieces. But I think I'll get over it. Anyone in the world would advise me to get away from him but there's something that's telling me not to. Something is keeping me stuck so closely to him whether he likes it or not. whther I like it or not. But I do like it most of the time.

I feel like I'm being selfish because of the good luck I've fallen into lately. I feel like I'm being stuck up and evil. I don't want to be. I want... I don't know....