Pain, stalkers and innocence

I am so tired at the moment. And I hurt really badly. My mom thinks it's a swollen gland in my neck cause there's a little lump there and it's completely painfuland not visible but I can feel it. I could barely hold back my tears in fourth block today. I took a nap on Ethan's shoulder on the bus i was so tired and hurting.

We had to do the beep test thing in PE today. It sucked. I was the second one out. I love to run, don't get me wrong, I justam really out of shape at the moment. So I nearly died in there today. Second and third were boring and annoying. Michael picked me up in fourth.

I have a stalker. (the only interesting thing about today.) I saw him five or twenty times today in the hallway and I got a stalker hug from him too. It was funny enough. I know his name now. He's not a real stalker. I just saw him a bunch today. His name is Anthony.

I have "Be My Escape" memorized on my bass. I'm proud of myself, but I'm not completely sure how the begining goes. I wish I could get their bass player to tell me how to play it. I would be really happy. I really like Relient K at the moment. They make me feel innocent. i don't know why but they do. I listen to My Chemical Romance and Twenty million other not very appropriate bands and they stick out so far it is almost scary. But when I'm out walking around listening to my iPod with relient K blasting in my ears I feel better. I don't care what I'm wearing wether it looks emo or not because they're all that's there in my ind. I'm clean of everthing bad. It makes no sense to you but I feel better.