I've finally decided....

It's halloween. And I don't have as many options as I thought I did. I would much rather stay home tonight and not do anything at all but "No." I am obligated to go to the church and be tortured for hours on end. I hate my costume. It makes me look like a slut. A really fat-ish/squishly slut. I don't like to look like that. I like for all of my skin to be covered even my face if i can. I want to draw attention away from my non-existant beauty and to the nothing i have in my mind.

Gym made me feel like an idiot. Only half of us were in there today cause half of the class are cheerleaders. So the other half (Eight of us) had to play volley ball. It was evil. Kayla and I are unco-ordinated. So They put both of us on the same team. Against the athletic people. So The two coordinated girls on our team were the only ones playing, not including us at all. And on top of that, everyone was giving us false encouragement. They never meant "Good job," when they said it. What they really meant was "Oh, God, you suck I'm glad you're not on my team."

My mom's kinda ticked off at me. I honestly think she's hormonal.

Michael texted me last night. He said something along the lines of "i'm sorry I haven't said much for a long time..I just got my phone back..And I'm afraid you like me for more than I am, and i'm afraid I'm too old for you." He doesn't realize I've loved him forever. I finally decided that this was love. yea, I sound like a teenage girl but I am so there...